Reflection

Well, after a 3 month hiatus, I have decided to try my hand at blogging again. So much has been happening that I haven't had much time to write. No journaling, no e-mailing, no poems, nothing. Truthfully, the whole thing has a lot less to do with a lack of time than with a lack of motivation. I usually write about spiritual things, about how God is leading me in my life.

Well, God is still leading me, but lately, I have been going through one of those quiet, reflective times, where I don't feel motivated to do anything, but am listening, learning, and absorbing. I feel a lot of growth happening, but that is also unsettling.

I think the whole thing started with a question about 2 months ago. I am searching for an answer from God, and it is coming slowly. But it kind of put everything else to a standstill. Until I get my question answered, it is really hard to move forward. I know that the Holy Spirit is the one that has directed me to ask the question of God, so that I can know the answer, but in the meantime, growth is hard. I sometimes think of how much easier it would be to just continue on, status quo, without having to change my thoughts, my life patterns, my attitudes. But then I would miss out on the great things I will be able to see, to know, to do when God brings me to the place where I am ready.

So for now, I am thankful that He is patient with me, and bringing me through this process at a pace I can handle. And I am listening.